美人计

It's something that doesn't work for the faithful ones.

I don't understand why some people can change their partners every now and then, just because they see another attractive person. I must be too traditional.

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After quarreling with my brother, of course I would be mad at him. But a few hours later, everything just goes away. That's a pretty good feeling. Brotherhood.

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Life has been normal lately. Seems like my desire for watch has simmered down. But that is mainly due to the forthcoming economic downturn in 2012. When that happens, exchange rate will change. My watch could be cheaper then ^^

Now I understand why uncles wear singlets at home: army. Bcos of army, many of us were half-naked or just wore a singlet in our admin time cos it's more cooling! I've been practicing my army habits at home now, but on the other hand, ISN'T THIS A TRANSFORMATION TO AN UNCLE?! O.O 30 years from now and I could be wearing a singlet at a kopitiam and crossing my 二郎腿while drinking a cup of kopi o gao. Not very surprising.

So, badminton on Tuesday, and badminton on Friday. Badminton is not fun when you play strokes for the whole game. People like me will slack and joke around. Therefore scores are important motivators.

Then we watched the 2nd best show, after winter's bone: east meets west.




zzzz I don't know why this movie was made in the first place..






It's really shit.

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I realised that it's possible to be early, even if there is no one forcing you to (eg: army). All you need is that extra effort to push yourself. Ever since I made that new year resolution to not be late, I kept getting late for outings. Never again. I'm not someone who gives excuses. I must be punctual next time.

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Some things comes with maturity and cannot be rushed. I was struggling to exert power on the ball in sec 2, but in sec 4, after a nice dream, I could spike properly. I was struggling to smack the feathery cock in sec 1, but in sec 3, after a long break in badminton, I could perform a smash. I was struggling to do pull-ups, but one fine day in army, I did my first ever no-cheat-very-honest pull-up. I was hoping my sincerity and modesty would help me in attracting someone from the opposite gender, but as days went by, in 201X, I..

All that happened out of the blue. So I thought the only factor is time and maturity. As I grew older, I found it easier to be more aggressive in games. Maybe when I am more mature, I will be holding hands.

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The rain these days kept disrupting my plans to run. A certain part of me was actually leaping for joy that I can't go run though. Project ppn continues, but maybe less intense now. I don't wish to grow bulkier anymore. That would mean protein powder, or a change in diet. I don't have the $$ to go for either one. Furthermore, after watching <<那些年，我们一起追的女孩〉〉 and this website http://www.feveravenue.com/a-females-perspective-the-singaporean-man-vs-af/
, I think size is not the top priority for girls.

So, maintaining is good enough for me, maybe add in a few runs to train for the upcoming half marathons in 2012!

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我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

是时候退后了。。

-周杰伦 退后-


like a tissue paper, I'm used
weijian

all-time lull

I couldn't have imagined the life I've been having now. So carefree, so carrefour... almost an ntuc.

I've been spending time surfing the net for tech info, like jailbreaking and its pros and cons, how to prolong battery life, how to make 3g faster, why starhub sucks, blah blah. I can safely assure myself that my brain has never been geared towards techy stuff. I spent 2 days trying to resolve the starhub issue, and though I finally found a method to improve on its connection, I still don't know why it works. 2 days later, I removed that installation and starhub 3g works again. wth?

But I like it when technology has improved my life :) I need some tech geek to enlighten me!

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Finally, finished boys over flowers.





my fav male character! I feel that he deserves a better girl.









my fav female character! what the.. 4 years?! impressive








That drama ended abruptly, with 2 couples ending up with each other after 4years. I like happy endings! But poor jihoo.. That's like pri6-sec4, or sec4-now. Sooooo long T.T

Oh well, I need a break before watching another drama series. Still deeply absorbed in boys over flowers.

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First practical driving lesson! Oh my godz. It's so damn hard! What clutch, accelerator, then clutch, then change gear wthhhh!? It'll be a miracle if I ever get used to changing gears, braking, and the hardest of all, starting from gear 1. My instructor's "EEEEHHHHHHH 不要那么大力" only made me more kanjiong. But comparing his 26/hr to my 30/hr tuition, I think he's a having a hard time teaching as well.

Soon. Soon I'll be driving like this











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Went to queensway to practise my bargaining skills!




Conclusion: don't bargain with indians; they won't budge. They'll just neh neh neh neh u.

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Then I mustered all my strength to pu-pu-pu-pu-pump it up, and back it up like a tonka truck. At least now I feel better than right after wallaby that period.

Still very disgusted by some ppls' thick layers of protein..

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played badminton with kokli jerm jingyang zhenghui watay jingyang junyuan sam. I like badminton!! My body really can last very long.. it just got warmed up after 2hrs of playing -.-

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aihsssssssss. I dunno how to do 2 A level qns!! Why! rj hc nj aj all the other schls are ok. But pj killed me!! 2 holy qns from pj!! O_O And these 2 qns came out in my last 2 lessons! And 1 of them my tutee knows how to do while I don't! O_O This is horrible. Time to consult amyas the genius. But meanwhile, my income is soon going to be $0 for 1 month..

And because A level questions are so much more challenging than O level ones, A level tuition offers a more exciting 2hrs than O level. But then the time taken to revise my work.. hmm.. I'm not sure if it's worth it anymore. $ + excitement + 2hrs-that-seem-faster against stress-free + more personal time + superiority. See how see how.

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I lost my motivation


那画面太美我不敢看

-蔡依林 布拉格广场-


like gwang soo in running man, my words are drowning
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I'd wait for the banana to be ripe, then I'll pluck it from the tree. But I can only hope that others won't pluck that unripe banana

DO YOU KNOW HOW SHIOK IT IS TO HAVE A BLOCK LEAVE?! NO HOMEWORK, NO STRESS! WHEEEEEE


Monday
Of course, holidays can't be THAT smooth-sailing. Monday guard duty with kokli. But still super relaxing hahaha. Under my influence, kokli got lazier and wanted to slack more :D It was a fun duty and time passed really quickly.

I used to think I'm not scared of cats. Now, I find them creepy O.O There was a wild cat roaming around the first floor, desperate for food. We couldn't feed it because it would just ask for more food instead of relying on its survival instincts to hunt. Nah, we didn't want to feed it cos it might just stay there forever and trouble us.




Anyway, the actions done by cats are mysteriously weird. Just look at this cat with an arched back. Eerie.



I prefer dogs.



Tuesday
morning tuition, afternoon gym with kokli guowei. Went to lot 1 at night for dinner and sampled 10 different brands of mooncake. That's when kokli n i thought of buying some quality mooncakes to share for 01, which was kind of fail.

Wednesday
morning badminton with army gang. Erm, boring. It can only be interesting if either 1. the guys are around my standard or 2. they are ppl whom i know v well or 3. they are interactive. So these guys don't talk (with the exception of jingyang cos he talked too much and his speech has no content) and I can't clique with them, and they also don't really play their best. So I dunno wat they were doing.

visited h&m with kokli. Oh my god. The stuff there is cheap and nice. Gotta earn more money.

went taka to sample like 50-70 different brands of mooncake with kokli.

why are we so gay. I have no idea. I wish I had a girl to accompany me instead.


Thursday
morning tuition. afternoon braces.
"帮我拿那个power chain来"
o_o
什儿!?
sounds really powerful. And of cos it hurt a lil. There is another wisdom tooth trying to grow out from the gums at my upper jaw T.T It feels like it's growing laterally also. GG


Then at night, a very impromptu night cycling at ECP! linwei jerm sam jingx kevin zhenghui me






























planned this long ago actually. But it was the 7th month last time, and Sam was very reluctant to go all the way to the east to cycle. So.. anyway it happened when I tapped on jingx's linwei's sam's and jeremy's enthusiasm and took over the conducting role.

I suggested playing 24 while we were resting. Then, we wanted to make the game more exciting. The last guy to think of the answer will have to stay behind for 30s, while the rest of us will proceed to the next pavilion and start the next set of cards. The person with the most number of cards at the end of the game would have to do a forfeit and I suggested shouting XXX at the jetty. Sadly, no one wants to do the forfeit -.- No game is fun without forfeit!

Anyway it was pretty fun. It's like running man, the variety show in korea, but we call it the "cycling man". And I could never lose LOL!


ate nasilemak at changi village. malays are just.. u know. scammed my money.
"FYI, I'm a REAAAALLL girlllll"
that's what a transvestite said when "she" and "her" friend walked out from the 7-11. I think she was talking to us. Then after "she" walked like 5m away from us, "she" pulled up "her" skirt and flashed "her" ass for us.
WTF. I KNOW. WTF. TURN OFF. the dragon totally cringed and shriveled. According to jingx, "she" was wearing a G-string. mmm sexy. WTF.


Anyway it was really tiring, except for the return trip along the road beside the airplane runway. 01 definitely couldn't tahan this trip. I wouldn't go so far on my own also.


Friday
morning tuition. Then another tuition in the evening, then the annual 01 mid-autumn fes gathering. I'd say the mooncakes weren't really popular. Sigh. Wrong flavours. But then again I dunno wat else we could do alr. At least ppl were singing to the songs and chillaxing.

Played 24 again. 01 girls are reaaalllll smart. Poor clarence lol. More forfeits!! :D

Late night movie:


isn't this movie nice. Funny and inspiring.

To have a muscular figure that looks like it got photoshop-ed onto your body. To get a grip of your manhood and dress like you should.










I wish I could drive a car.

3months90days13weeks

Saturday
noon tuition. Attended my cousin's wedding dinner at a restaurant in Novotel. I must say, it was a rather fail wedding. Uninteresting flow of events. No games. No astounding march-in or watsoever. Or maybe my standard's too high haha. Wedding is a once in a lifetime affair. Why not make it a blast for ur wife?

But then again, I'm too young to be speaking of weddings.





It's been some time since I've met up with them. I guess everyone has his own life, unless circumstances make people's paths cross, and only then can bonds be forged, but even so, maintaining it is another matter.


But that is when we are completely relying on destiny. Fate changes the circumstances that we're in, and our actions change fate.



Lastly, this was one good dinner, in terms of its food, because I've always thought wedding dinners are not supposed to fill ur stomach LOL! This was so filling!

And poor me, my face got red even though I only drank half a cup of red wine. -.- Then ppl come asking me "eh u ok ma? how much did u drink". -.- I shy luh can? Surrounded by pretty girls every time I drink. How can I not blush?

Sunday
morning tuition.

GGGGG. What I've been fearing of.. is here. Statistics. My tutee asked me to revise statistics with him. And all these while I've only been doing pure math. LOL. Can I study statistics in 1 week? Plus the fact that I have FTT test this friday and I haven't studied a single shit?

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You need to look 帅 before girls take a look at you, but if that girl really likes you, looks doesn't really matter that much. Self-contradictory isn't it.

That was one fun week.


And if we realised, I've got lots of tuition. That means 2 things. 1. I'm terribly exhausted from tuition. 2. I've got monehhh to spenddd, or save to spend later, or save to make more money, but also to spend later :D Life is about spending eventually.


十年之前, 我不认识你
十年之后, ..


like a stuntman, I'll stun you
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september holidays

Finally a september holiday without homework or test or stress or outfield!

What's even better? 12KM ROUTE MARCH CANCELLED LOL. I'll hug u if I could, mr sky, for giving me free rain on my birthday hahaha.

Book in on tues, book out on wed :D then I started worrying about rotting at home. But nope! Busy like mad!

Thurs -- tuition, gym
Fri -- badminton, tuition x 2
Sat -- tuition x 2, 01, museum, book in, sleep 1.5hrs
Sun -- waste time and energy till 11am, eat, tuition


As we can see, my life is tuition everyday. How will I still want to be a teacher next time?? Crazy. I need to think of simpler ways to prove my points, because I like it when teachers are like that. Although I'm not going to become a teacher next time, how can I be a good one? What I'm learning now is putting myself in others' shoes.
During sunday's tuition, I daydreamed non-stop. I had some time cos my tutee was doing a qns. Then, I was in another world in super weird situations, and I opened my eyes again in a dreamy state and nearly wanted to turn to my left and talk to the auntie in my dream. It was insane. I can even dream of sth when I only dozed off momentarily. Great mind of mine eh?


badminton was fun with jeremy sam edwin. But I got a baluku at the back of my head T.T still hurts now, hope my intelligent juice don't leak out, if not many there won't be any great invention from this generation..


Once again, I'm reminded of how fortunate I am to still have friends, even more for the fact that we know each other since 101. why? No idea. You can say it's an 01 outing, or a NTU outing! huimin jane vivien kokli me. The light festival was rare and uncommonly seen, but I really dunno what I'm supposed to appreciate LOL?! Museum was better cos there were some interesting old stuff. Too bad we missed eating tau hway.


AHM
Go there afk like statues/information counter. Runners keep coming and ask questions like "whr is the bus stop?" when the bus stop is only 50m in front of them. I also got to see how fucked up singaporeans are. 5 dustbins with diameter around 50cm placed at the kerb of the road, each one of them is 1m apart from the other. Runners are supposed to finish their bananas as they ran and throw the skin into the bins. Miss. MISS MISS MISS. WTF?! They might as well declare that they have problems aiming the spoon into their mouth when they eat!?!??!


















That's not the worst. Just because there was some bastard who threw the banana skin deliberately on the grass patch, others just follow suit. WTF?! This is not an issue about aiming anymore. It's courtesy. Doesn't mean that the ground is dirty => you can dirty it even more. Shame on them. Yet, I'm the one feeling the embarrassment from their opprobrious conduct. Can't they be more considerate? Marathon runners very big?

And normally these kind of ppl are from the older generation. Not that I want to discriminate against the elderly or disrespect them. But some of them think they are old birds, or lao jiao, then act like bosses. Old = big fuck? Being old gives you the privilege of doing anything you want?


WHICH REMINDS ME
of the groping incident in bus 190. That asshole tried to squeeze the rather old lady towards the window and according to a commuter who was standing, his hands were on her thigh. AND BY THE WAY HE IS AN OLD UNCLE, AGAIN PROVING MY PREVIOUS POINT. I was sitting behind him, what could I do? Make a fuss out of it? Kicked his seat in an attempt to wake up his idea, but the bus trip was already rough enough to shake his seat.

I was thinking, maybe he took advantage of the rough bus ride and inch towards the lady every bump the bus made. Act 一个 sleeping and listening to music with earphone with a droopy head some more. Okay, maybe he was really sleeping from my point of view, but the commuter's look of disgust confirmed my suspicion. Luckily that incident didn't last long and the lady alighted.

do that to my girlfriend my mother my friends and i'll skin his balls alive and make a spicy banana out of him with chilli.

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No, I'm not complaining. Instead, I hope next week will be as interesting as last week and this week.

meanwhile, he is screaming silently with glee


like michael jackson, I moonwalk on earth
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The week that I think feels like chalet in army

Army
Are you kidding? Your parents pay tax to fund mindef only to let us NSFs have chalet in army? Chill, it's only this week. LOL! There were only morning runs, then after that was rest, lunch, rest, dinner, rest, RO. Hehehehehehehehe. This allowed me to clear pirates of the caribbean 1 to 3, the hangover part1, thor, limitless, battle: los angeles, the gameplan, what women want, fully revise integration, finish studying for btt and sleeeeep :D

The fun excludes Wednesday night, when I had to protect the camp from imaginary terrorists, who might not have enough intelligence to inform them of the outdated tanks inside. So, I learnt my lesson not to dumb-wittingly tribute my royal blood to the likes of blood thirsty creatures: I slept in the room with sofa and tv, but on the bench. Well, I wasn't expecting much sleep from that anyway, with the rumbling thunder above me and the occasional weird bites from god-knows-what insect in that room.. *sigh.



This is one crazy movie. I like the screwed up feeling haha, because I'm not the one screwed up inside.









Saturday
A short 1hr badminton! But it was intense with kokli, so I was exhausted as quickly as the speed of the disappearance of a jar of sweets that was placed in a room full of children. The thrill derived from a singles match is different from that of a doubles match. In the latter, chemistry is the gist of the excitement. The non-verbal communication and instinctive matching moves to cover-up each other's open spots just makes the pair-work feel exhilarating. I prefer this to a one-man-show match. Looking forward to doubles!


This brings me to another point. I've been wondering why there are people who I can never click with, no matter how hard I try. The chemistry is just not there. People like jeremy and junhe can click with anyone.

There has to be a common goal or interest for the growth of friendship. Likewise, if the life paths of 2 good friends split, the goal or interest is diverted so there is high chance that the friendship will deteriorate. 01 [01 is a very customised term for this specific clique of us and though it includes people like afiq and peiyang, we generally refer 01 to the core group of 01-inverse] still exists but according to the theory, we shouldn't be. For the guys, our paths are split, but we have a common goal: ORD. For the girls, they err have to study? Do friends congregate only if they have a purpose? Yes, maybe. If that's the case then 01 will be like a family. Family members are comfortable with one another anytime. But even for family members, there has to be constant interactions from activities to maintain the bond. Imagine ignoring your sibling for 1 year. That's why some of us are trying and only some of us are together.


If you are committed, you wouldn't stop trying.




ERMMMM. Ok the storyline is rather lame. All I could remember was the appearance of ugly vampires and werewolves, and free sex from the girl. Really ugly monsters. Predictable plot also. Winter's bone is comparable to this film, well, at least I laughed like mad when watching the former.










There are some people whom you can talk to anytime about anything, and some whose faces you can keep staring and staring but not knowing what to say. What's the reason?


Diaries should be more than written feelings and thoughts. Recounts are as important because they place you into the then scenario and this helps in recollection. Besides, a recount style makes the future you want to read on, no? It also helps to keep track of the chronological order of the development of thoughts.


Still waiting for the day when I can shout "ORD LO!" and mean what I say.


like the guy who I see in the mirror all the time, you're awesome
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esc, alt + f4, delete, backspace, end.

Sunday was a wonderful resting day at home.

Monday
section 2 singing session with linwei yuanwei zhenghui jingxuan kevin. Quite fun? Haha. It was crazy. I remembered 背对背拥抱 + 1.5hrs was my limit already haha. After that were 3 random 走音 moments ahhhhhh. Horrible. Ok not really horrible. It was fun breaking voices together LOL. So cute when someone tries to avoid breaking his voice by going off-tune.


Then at night got cousin Damien's wedding dinner. Can you believe it? I only know my cousin's name days before his wedding. WTF. This is an example of a fail inter-family bonding. I will never let this happen. Anyway his wedding was awesome! Creative and funny ideas haha. Nice..


That was also the night when I first experienced tipsiness! 2 glasses of red wine + 2 cups of beer. My face was red until it's like I blushed after I accidentally peed in my pants -.- It happened all of a sudden.. when I turned my head around for.. I-forgot-what. I never thought I could actually be drunk, but after that experience, I know I'm a goner if I were to be inebriated. Walking in a straight line was slightly weird. But I would really want to try it one day, maybe at home, try and see if my mental strength is strong enough to control my body. hehehehe


Saw kahwai at bugis, I wonder how she's coping. I guess some people just prefer to settle their own problems by themselves. And as I was browsing the array of earphones, Verene came to offer her help lol. Apparently she was working there. What a surprise.

Tuesday
ok, 1 day of resting is enough. 2nd day onwards is called rotting. Horrible. There were 7 letters on my face I think. They were... I-A-M-B-O-R-E-D. Yawnz.

Priority [for the future me]
I value people who value me. I thought that's what people should do? A has B while C has D. A and C will only consider me when B and D are unavailable. So, what, I'm a reserve?
If I'm not your first priority, then you shouldn't be mine too, no? No, that's not what jianyu would think. His ideology is more about unrequited givings, but of course not to the extreme extent that he continues to give even when he's treated like a trash. That is foolishness. I understand, but I don't agree with it. Or rather, I'm more sensitive to feedback. One-sided-ness isn't fair what. But since when are things fair in this world?
Seriously, if A thinks B is more important than C in all occasions except when B is missing-in-action, then A can just tell C that A has fucked off from C's life. What's the point. Going for the sake of going? Is that fun? Is that bonding? No. Then wtf is it. Backup fun pack ah. "hmm, I have this group and that group who will always want me anytime. Yay. Let's see if I have anything with my group first.
I learnt that one should never be desperate for anything at anytime. People will only take advantage of your desperation. Desperation also causes injustice that is uncalled for. I should have realised this when I was playing maple. So many life lessons to learn, now that I've thought of it.
Some things are taken for granted. No one wants to trouble themselves. Everyone wants to have fun, go somewhere that is near their home, a place where there are pretty girls, little trouble involved, free of charge, etc etc. Wa, either you have royal blood or ..you have royal blood. Since your want is not equivalent to mine, I don't see a point in it happening. This is a want, not a need. It's all about how strong your want is. I am not desperate for it to happen also. Let's just sit back and wait for things to happen.
Some people face this so frequently that they are really immune to it. Poor things. That explains the precedence of family over friends.

Friends shouldn't be calculative. Sure, I wouldn't be calculative if you were my friend. Are you? Perhaps given unsought is really better, since so many are waiting for it.
Strangely, this vehement feeling died after like 10mins. I felt nothing as I was typing this o.o This was not targeted at anyone, but a mere vent for some of my frustrations. Too committed to too many things. Just be 潇洒 and live longer.


Wednesday and Thursday are singing days. Sang 3 times in 4 days. Cool? Ya! My desire to blast with my voice as a means to de-stress is nullified! Really sang to my heart's content, or lungs content, or throat's content..




making our eyes meet! cock-eye-sters lol











Friday was badminton day! One of the most weijian-fail days: I packed everything and went to board my bus happily like a school boy who was anticipating a catching game in school later. Totally redundant description LOL. After I alighted from 67, kokli asked, "Eh? Where is your racket?"

WHERE IS MY RACKET!? WHAT THE?! I only remembered I was going to Jeremy's house for something that requires a change of clothes later, BUT I FORGOT IT WAS BADMINTON. FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL. I was kind of sad that morning, because I couldn't use my own racket, and it was very paiseh to keep borrowing others', especially sam's. Luckily it was not a wasted trip, because the last few matches were pretty exciting :D I look forward to more badminton games!

Then we went to take a look at topman's promotion. Urgh, lousy. Need something else for 120411 onwards!

Saturday
There there, the euphoric moment when you wished you had 2 stomachs for the scrumptious spread of hawker food.

From the hawkers at.. Chomp Chomp. As the name suggests, eating there is not a nomnom affair, but a chomp chomp one!



fried hokkien prawn mee
rojak
barbequed chicken wings
fried oyster
satay beehoon
otah
carrot cake*
15cm tall mug of sugar cane





carrot cake was a last minute order, just ordered to compare with the one at cck. It's like comparing a chopper to a cloth. The winner was clear. Everything we ate there was yummy. Seriously! I have to admit I had to struggle to decide which food to taste first, and subsequently which food to stuff in my mouth at one time! Tough battle! Rojak was sweet and crunchy, satay beehoon was satisfying, bbq chix were crispy yet tender and they gave me the "I am THE chicken" feel, hokkien mee was slurpy and smooth, otah was.. well.. otah? LOL! a pretty normal otah? BUT the definition of delicious began to transmute into a kind of heavenly bliss for the tongue, as I caught sight of the shimmering oysters, trapped in chunks of egg and flour, that seemed to be screaming eagerly for a chance to affirm the power of seafood.

That was one good place for supper :D Next time shall go there again with friends for supper! Ya, supper, if not lunch meh haha.



Yup, that was one week!

like a traffic light, you showed a red light, yet hinted a green light
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double 5 double 6, 55 66 in the house yo?

shit. 5566 first album songs are sooo nice. Reminds me of my primary school days. Then, I asked marcus to help me burn jolin's and 5566's albums into cds. That was my only source of entertainment(gameboys and playstation were allowed only in the holidays). I would go home after school, put the cd into my tv speaker, lie on the sofa and enjoy the music. I even tried to use the recorder to blow out the tune of 爱情漫游! Last time I had a super l..a..gg.gg.gy computer which hanged for at least 5min every time I wanted to navigate to another website (plus dial-up speed of cos). In spite of having a slow com, I still went to search for their lyrics just so I could sing along. The first song I learnt was 我难过. Why? This.








tony!? This show was marvelous! It made me a fanboy of 5566 and fostered my interest in basketball. It's basically a cornerstone to what I am now.









Why did I watch this? I remember my bros and I were supposed to fold clothes on Friday night. Then we would switch on the tv and watch something while folding. MVP 情人 just brainwashed the lil minds of me and my bros. 5566 was the bomb until Jay came in. Then some how I found 5566 lame. Now I still find it lame, but I'll always remember my lying-on-sofa-days.



Back in army, I'm glad I survived yet another field camp. Luckily this time, I bought tuna, uncle toby(strawberry), choc mint, mamee and hello panda to help me tide over the torturous hunger in 3 days! But all that were actually not enough haha. I had to ration my food. urgh. More snacks next time!


My badminton really cui lol. I couldn't smack a single cock for the first hour. Real cock right. Kinda like I lost my touch already. Luckily I got back some of it after that. Played with kai tng kok clar. Played basketball in camp also..quite fun. Played volleyball with the usual peeps again. One junior pointed something out to me and I found it to be true. They really got their own circle of trust that we cannot enter. Of course those kept outside will feel bad. Some times when you want to join in their circle, you will feel ostracised and totally cannot hit it off with them. Blah, weird.




weird, or should I say unique? Okay first I've got to say I don't find the girls attractive, just thick make-ups. That main character was ever-frowning in a bid to act cute. The director probably want to make this movie a bit like shutter island. Ya, ok, a bit lor. What's the twist? Normally people would think they will fight together and win or something like that---not for this. All died for one.






I really am not proud of my army rank. I'm not. Really not. I'm not I'm not I'm not. Even till now, I still think I could have entered command school. Then there are skeptics like jingxuan who will act like the opposition party and argue "but do you really think you can be a leader? maybe it's you." And from observation, I could argue "do you really think those who went to the command school are real leaders? Or are they people who successfully displayed i-am-outspoken facades? Not that all are like that but.. you know.."

Once a man, always a man. I ought to be grateful to know this bunch of army mates.


If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?


like cordyceps, the winter worm scared the grass
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