Sunday, January 29, 2012

They say when one is in love, the surrounding trees will seem to blossom, the weather will seem nice, the heart will be light..

or so "they" say. Who are the "they"?!?

So, that was a happy chinese new year everybody. Not really. This year was pretty boring. Instead of the usual hey-yo-army?-studying?-working?-where?-girlfriend?-very tall hor the 3 of you, no one bothered to interact with us! Awkward. We couldn't be bothered to initiate conversations too. So we just ate, received angbaos, watch tv, left.

CNY eve was boring as well. I think it's because of my bloated stomach which caused me to lose appetite. Grew very big leh haha.






The biggest shrooms I've ever seen, next to swusan. Again I don't know whether it's my stomach or the mushroom. So filling!











Spent the last of 初二 watching IP man 2 on tv. Screwed up mediacorp went to censor some of the important fighting scenes, like the rapid and relentless punches on the angmoh at the end. What the hell, next time go broadcast some teletubbies show better la, healthier for kids -.-

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Back in my hometown yiochukang...






Never-ending filing during free times! Oh well, at least I'm slacking. Still can play music and surf the net. Next week is gonna be challenging.


That's my ultimate array of papers split into stacks according to the alphabetical order of employees' names.



Jasmin is another temp staff there. What, don't think too much la, office love -.- Am I old or ..am I old? She's waiting for her O level posting results, just like my brother, while I'm waiting for uni. I went through 2 more phases of life than these teenagers: A levels and army. Hope that I've grown mature since my schooling days? Girls don't like immature guys right.


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The most interesting day of the week, and definitely an indelible memory to me, falls on Saturday. The 3 dramatic idiots and the creation of sjw.

snooze 1.5hrs, smack myself on the butt to run, took a detour when it should only have been one stop, realised that 28th is an invalid day, powerful de-stress activity, laugh non-stop. Got so hot and tired hahaha :D

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First time driving inside the circuit. Wa scary. So many things to look out for. Mount kerb-fail. Inability to stop at white line-fail. Bang car-fail. Look into the mirror and get surprised by the awesome guy looking back at me-fail. Not to forget the demerit points! Hope I can pass it in just one try!

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I think I did something dumb which erased the other half of my post. Now I really forgot what I typed -.-

But I still remember this. I was reading up on friend zone, and realised that girls are the ones who usually "friend zone" guys, not the other way. Don't wanna be confused, so I'm cautious, very cautious. Then again, exercising too much caution impedes the flow of spontaneity. Haiyo I better be spontaneous in accordance to my new year resolution. Chance, are you with me?!

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我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不后悔

-周华健 爱相随 -


like 阿旺,傻人有傻福
weijian

Saturday, January 21, 2012

is this a real thump?

I've been so busy these days.

So, here comes work! Good thing is I don't have to don office wear everyday. I think the more I wear these formal shirts, the more confident and comfortable I will be in them. Seems good for future presentations?




Office life is about computer, telephone, papers, stationery and a cup of coffee.











I was told that if I have nothing to do, I can do filing. -.-" I dislike doing filing. I don't even file my own worksheets during my school days?! Unless they were to be graded or I would be scolded if I didn't file, and these ppl who made me file were leesf vlee and slee. All Lee!? Seriouslee? Filing is what makes me so tired I think. My shoulder will ache. Oh and most importantly, filing is a brainless job. Separate into perm and temp, then arrange from a-z, then for each letter arrange a-z for second letter. I need my brains to be used!

While I was learning during the handover, I realised my attention span decreased significantly. I drifted off so many times, and had to force myself to get back on track. My memory is another facepalm issue. Even my handover aunty, oops, laughed at my ridiculously shrunken memory capacity. Is it due to army!? Or am I really so toot!?

Thankfully my colleagues and boss are nice people. I get to visit many different places for lunch everyday!





used to be my usual homedish: fried egg with bittergourd!















ice cream waffle at NYP!



After taking a look at the youngsters there, I'm surprised if someone from poly tells me he/she is not attached. Luckily I didn't go poly. My feeble heart and mind will never catch up with the 花花世界。




Still adapting..

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One of my relatives in msia







Loves to imitate people and follow the laughter of others even though he doesn't really know what's going on. He will definitely be a great entertainer next time!


Too bad I'm not close with him...









Why doesn't my family promote bonding amongst relatives? Sigh. Some times I really don't understand what the previous generation is thinking. I shall not see this from my generation onwards.

I see people organising events via facebook and I can't help but shake my head. Sure it's an easily accessible platform for many. But I feel that it's not personalised enough. Some people who don't go fb will miss it out totally. Attendance of people will also directly impact the outcome of that event. It's different when it's an sms. Is it me or does fb make one less insincere? Or is that the prevailing dominance of trolling these days? Trolling seems to be advocating cynicism when it's overly abused. And I seem to be cynical here too. Heck it. Trolling is still a great source for amusement.

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So I scanned around my workplace for 20+s and 30+s guys. I was horrified. So next time I'll be like that!? They don't really care about their outlook. Guys are nerdy thin and frail. Girls are aunty or have thick makeup.

Not their fault. They focused so much on work that they have no energy for other stuff. For now I should still be ok with my pushup regime. And running! Half marathon is coming! Ah even without marathon, I feel that I ought to run at least once a week to keep fit!

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swusan's mum generously treated us again! It just reminds me of how long this group of 01 people has known each other. I might forget NJ's school song, but never ever for BP's. Okay probably because NJ's is a malay anthem hahaha.

Finally met up with people with whom I have spent 1.5yrs on the field. It feels great. More for the soldiers than for the sgts though. Crazy bunch of guys haha. All of us have moved on with our lives, and many of them are super high flyers. Go ahead and fly, I'll prowl in sg haha. I'm not very ambitious u know, neither am I capable of being so.

guonian said sth like, "wa lao eh I'm sick of forming relationships with people and then they leave for 5years!" He was referring to people who will be going overseas for further studies.

That's why I find it so hard to make friends now. My heart can't really take this kind of thing. So I cannot be a teacher who is too committed, or a NSman who sees batches of soldiers come and go, or ... some other job that nurtures people and make them fly.

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Second wisdom teeth extraction! Whoa this time I felt more during the LA. I was so afraid of feeling the pain when he was sawing my tooth. "What if he didn't inject properly!?" And I tell u the needles are really not joking. They are sooooo long! Blah you got to have great mental strength to embrace it. They provoke painful thoughts, but are actually not even as painful as a fall. I clenched my fists though, I think they help to transfer some blood to my hands rather than my teeth so as to delay the relay of the "pain" message from gums to brain and back to gums again. Just joking, I got no idea how it really works.

Like last time, first thing I did after the surgery was to sleep. When I woke up, I didn't feel any pain! Hmm not bad! Then I went to eat my porridge and OUCH!? Slowly, I finished the porridge and... I went back to JMC to take my antibiotics cos I forgot to take -.- Another proof of my poor memory. Then at night, I ate tau hway and OUCH?! Slowly, I finished the tau hway and... rested. 2hrs later I ate my porridge and surprisingly the pain WAS GONE! GONE GONE GONE! YES!!! Amazingly! swusan if u're here, u can take my advice of eating cold food, helps to close wounds, stop bleeding, and thus gets rid of the pain! I think? haha.

But I had to test whether the pain was really gone. I took a ba gua and started eating. YUMYUM the bagua was delicious LOL! :D That concludes 90% of my wisdom teeth ordeal. Stitch removal next week woohoo!

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I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me

One step closer

-christina perri a thousand years-


like an admin boy, I thank you formally with my warmest regards
weijian

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

one does not simply fall in love

There must be chemistry for crush to arise, then infatuation, then interaction, then go through some bittersweet experience tgt, then ...

No, it shouldn't be so technical. One simply loves.
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Huimin's birthday celebration at breko cafe at holland v! It was a pretty fun day with games.

After that was more talking session with yumei qp vivien at 302. I just need to sit there and listen to the conversation. So much information and so interesting! like FM201

Yumei's and jianyu's birthday celebration at watami! I was there for the cake and photos only, so I didn't know what happened.. But I got another 01 polaroid photo from yumei hahaha.







choonboon can be really cute eh?










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I lost my wallet.. AGAIN! 3rd time alr. Discovered its absence the next day. REALLY REALLY LUCKY to find it at foodfare! Thanks cleaners! 3rd time losing and 3rd time getting back my wallet. Must do more good deeds to accumulate good karma! offering free help-grandma-cross-road service~


I rmb it was lunch time and I wanted to go out and dabao my standard $3 杂菜饭. Then I realised it was raining. zzzz. So I decided to try cooking again.


That's 2 packets of noodles, 1 fried egg, 3 cheese hotdogs.












I learned my lesson. Never cook 2 packets of noodles with soup! TOO FILLING! But u can do that if it's dried noodles. As usual, fried egg was the best. Hot dog is just hot dog. Cheese was melted, but I still don't know how to make a cheese hotdog. It tasted like cheese and hot dog instead of cheese hotdog.

I wonder when I will push aside my laziness and cook again..


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Finally, after sending 100+ copies of my resume and answering numerous calls, I got a temp job! Ah. okok pay I guess, but it's quite far. Well, better than having no job!


I hope the working environment is nice, and that I'll perform well enough to stay cos I don't wanna go through the application process again..

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After much delay, the long awaited wisdom teeth extraction.



The scariest part was the 5 injection needles. O_O The needles were so freaking long I tell u! But on the surgical chair, there was no turning back. Might as well face it bravely. poke poke poke. Numbness overtook me from the right lane because you are not allowed to overtake from the left lane. My head was covered with a surgical sheet. Then came the sawing. zzzzuuuuuu went the saw. I had no idea wth that oral surgeon was doing, but he was an indian and he looked funny, so I trusted him. Love professional and funny indians ^^ Soon, he stitched the wound and the surgery was over. Like, 15mins?! Cool. The sad thing is.. the pain comes after the anesthesia wears off..




I was kiasu so I quickly popped a pill of painkiller. Hours later, that same incessant pain came but it was bearable. BUT! 重点来了. 2hrs of sleep and the pain was gone! miraculously! I'm more convinced now that sleep allows one's body to heal naturally.

sherlock holmes has a part 2. So does my wisdom teeth extraction-this friday.

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Can't stand this kiasu tutee of mine... His mum gave me a plate of cookies to eat but I didn't feel like biting, so I asked him, " Do you want to eat? Is it ok if I don't eat? Cos I just extracted my wisdom teeth."

A polite kid would say, "oh sure, just leave it there."
A guailan kid would say, "I don't mind treating u my box of ferrero rochers now, u know?"

This kid just stared at me, with a tinge of tikoness, like I was supposed to start saying something, not him. ~awkward silence~ Then I asked my question again. He afk AGAIN! Then he replied, "I don't know. You have to ask my mum."

_|_ indecisive mama boy. Felt like using my pen and stabbing myself.

That was just one of the very distinctive mamaboy incident. Almost every bit of his actions and speech tells u "hello.i'm a mama boy.my mama told me i have to pee at 3am every night so i do it."

Wait, there's 1 more.
me: "Do you know how I can get to ION orchard from here?"
him: *starestarestare afkafkafkafk
me:"any bus or..?"
him: "yes I know. you can take a taxi."

_|_ I felt like licking him. He wasn't joking leh.


My other tutee was the opposite: a tanned cat high boy who looks promising and cool and most importantly is not a mama boy. Not saying that loving ur mum is wrong, don't get me wrong. This is just ...





u know!











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再真心 也会被阻绝

-林俊傑 學不會-

like stephen chow, I act 一个正经 but am crazily lame
weijian

Sunday, January 1, 2012

那些年我们一起在msn countdown..

-super long post-

That's right. Now people don't even use msn anymore. It's very sad. I've had precious moments with msn..

First of all, I must thank msn for teaching me how to type fast and sensibly. It's a very important skill that I think many people still have problems with. For instance, a noob guy can type a whole lot of shit and no one can understand what-talking-him. How did I manage to type fast? Hmm.. I needed to close deals fast in maplestory, so I had to type fast to convince the other party. I was very excited while I was on msn because interacting through messenger was a rather new concept for me then. So as we chatted, my excitement made me want to type faster, just like how one flourishes in sports during heated moments.

Now I don't see people online, and even if they do, they don't reply. Sigh..

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WHOOOOOAAAA WHAT A BUSY WEEK INDEED!

Clarence's xmas party!


















The carousel! At scott's hotel! It was very expensive $_$ my very first 50bucks buffet. The tiger prawn was nice! And that was my first time seeing a chocolate fountain! The choc was too sweet for me, but nvm, the combination of strawberry and pineapple with chocolate was the newzpaperz man.









the boys are back



















goal!! need to practise saying that more often to be able to clique with my fellow uncles in the coffee shop..












Then dance central! Dancing is very fun. Watching people dance is more enjoyable actually HAHAHAHA! dearest zuokun made me laugh nonstop. I think dancing videos are like wine: it gets better with age! Shall review it 1 year later..



Then tianfong clar yongchee ray let us taste their awesome cake. Ah.. nice. But I'm very lazy to learn how to make.















xmas gift exchange! got a nice lego notebook from raymond hahaha. yay!











Clarence's a very nice host. Thanks to him, vball lives.

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Last christmas, I gave you my heart. The very next day, ..

Boon's house party LOL!





I think we all learnt our lesson. LOL! half of the turkey here was uneaten. The stuffing was not stuffed before heating the turkey up. The sauce wasn't enough. Our stomachs weren't that big. So many problems! Poor choonboon had turkey meat for 3 meals x 2 days.











Too tired to immerse in the christmas mood..


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Maybe monday is a good day to rest! NO! Driving + tuition combo. V tiring. This combo happened again on the first day of 2012 and prevented me from taking a full nap T.T

I think I had 10 driving lessons already. I can drive le wheee! Some drivers just honked me cos I was slow.. please honk me only when u are driving a manual car like me. Bully me sia :( luckily my instructor helped me "eat" that guy. I must learn how to "eat" drivers. A tiger doesn't need to kill, but it needs to learn how to kill just in case it loses its reign.

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Then on Tuesday, it's megazip!

sorry swusan :( I hate to give up one of the co-founders for megazip, but that's the only way.. icecream kk? Well it was an experience for me, I shall no longer jio so many people. I wanted to express how frustrating it had been forcing people to prioritise this, but I guess it's better to just forget the details.

Despite the tough coordination, megazip was pretty fun! Positive response from 26th and 27th! Though we didn't get to experience that amazingly arduous climbmax 3rd level on the same day, I think we all shared a common problem in overcoming one of the elements then! Overall a very good once in a lifetime experience haha. Free fall was a shiok experience, because I'll never want to jump down from any height without a harness! But only for the first few split seconds -.- Rock-climbing! My favourite! I think my body is more or less naturally inclined towards climbing because even before climbing it, I knew I could easily overcome it. Such a breeze! hao lian a bit HAHA. Ahhhs, I really wanna climb again!

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After that was 01chalet.
一起长大的约定
那样清晰打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性
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而我已经分不清

It was a promise made 2 years ago. But as time flies, its significance eroded..

Some how people have this idea that the majority will be there, so it's just "me" who will have special arrangements. In fact, everyone has this special arrangement. In the end only a couple few turned up. It's the same as punctuality. "oh I'm late cos I missed my bus", "oh I'm late cos I helped a grandma cross the road"... Everyone has his own problem, so where is the majority? I think kaisheng experienced it worse for one of his outings.

1st day: So when we reached, that asshole guard went to chaokeng for more than 30mins and he put a "out for patrol" on the door and dao my calls. Really asshole. Made me worry bout checking-in for nothing.

That's not all. That room was full of hairs. One might have thought that it used to be a hair salon. Thanks to jane's warning, me and kokli were well prepared. Oh and there were only qp kokli and me then. We started our army style of tidying up the place. No, I think we were even more thorough than in army. We used cloths and mopped the floor twice, cleaned and scrubbed the toilet and rubbish bin, picked up most of the hair, wiped the sofa table chairs, but we couldn't do anything to the bedsheet. To reward our efforts, we ordered domino's and shared. It's quite shiok actually . Not long after, ants came in from the outside again and I had to mop for a bit more before finally deciding that my efforts are fruitless. Actually how clean was the chalet at coasta sands previously? I forgot. But we didn't seem to bother so much then, and the floor was brown tiled, so dirt wasn't visible.


No the ordeal is not over yet. Then came an sms saying yf was coming over soon. That's mr.muscle and miss bodilicious coming over our humble unit filled with people who aren't really close with them! O_O Yup it was a hard time trying to make them interested. My teases on muscles seemed negative to them I don't know why.

2nd day: We went to buy bbq stuff, met up with some other 01, then went back to prepare food. Then we went to 吹海风 by the seawall, my favourite activity by the sea. If only the wind can make my hair more 帅,I'd go there everyday haha.




The trip back to white sands made us walk through the nostalgic lane, where we had to form up every sunday and board the bus and ferry to tekong. :'(


Are you enlisting? are you kidding me? LOL!






To be honest, even now, I will wake up and be shocked that I have ord-ed. After a frigging 1year 10months!?


Soon, it's night, and the bbq commenced.


  



intimidating aren't they? if u know what I mean. haha.


One of the best bbq :) easy to cook!







Then, 该走的都走,该留的也都留了。

How big is the difference? Let's analyse. muscles was supposed to stay, but left. red was supposed to leave, but stayed. Spiderman was supposed to defeat green goblin, but went shopping with maryjane. Batman was supposed to lim kopi with ahgao, but went to pull off that smirk on joker's face. Yup.

After that we played some drinking games, but sadly I wasn't able to drink a lot cos my stomach wasn't really occupied, so I was worried for my 肝爹。But poor jianyu..

   



must have a lot to drink. bangthebus!






I realised that I don't really like alcohol unless it's for forfeit, and I can't really tong late night sessions. I'm not a party animal after all.



All the way until morning. We went to 吹海风 again but brrr, it was so damn cold. Then I pondered about my goals in life, but still couldn't get an answer. I thought of some instances in the past when I could only scream upon reminiscence.


There were many times when I wanted to spice things up, but the opposing forces were too resistive. There was a boy who liked clara but he didn't want to trouble himself worrying about possible results of his actions in wooing her. So he chose stoning. How boring his life must have been.. 01 is a group that really likes to do nothing and talk, so perhaps activities next time should be more geared towards talking.

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So I tried being the wet blanket of the group with the "I don't want to spend so much money", and it was really a stupid feeling. I'm not saying we should just throw away our money when we go for outings, but not to the extent that you can spend 5k on a box of rolex tissue paper yet not 15bucks on a meal? Different people really have different priorities, it's ok, my bad.

What do I see in the 4 bfs? Balls. Yup that's the thing that is apparent. You can't be too muscular cos ppl will say it's disgusting. You can't be too tanned cos ppl will say you are like a banglah. You can't be too smart cos ppl will feel inferior and be speechless in front of you. You can't be too good cos ppl will think you are mr.good and you treat everyone else equally good. You can't be too sociable cos ppl will think you are just doing your routine interaction. You can't be too steady for any outing cos ppl will think you like to spend money.

In fact, the value of guys can be measured only to a small extent. A perfect guy with the above qualities might not have a gf because of the above. So, those qualities are important, but they are not everything. You need chemistry and balls. Chemistry is something that can be nurtured in time, but best if it's natural. But balls can definitely be learned. Time to have balls.

The thing is that love isn't something that allows you to reap what you sow. So when you are ready to use the balls you have acquired to woo the girl you really like, here comes some movie/drama and said something like "if you love her, you don't need to possess her". 讲真的leh. Like that let's just fall in love but be singles lor.

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The next day, there was a wedding dinner for dunno-who-relative at St.Regis. It was disastrous. My bros and I went up the stage to help him yumseng, then he asked, "who are they? nvr see them before leh?" and smile smile smile. @#$%#$^@ help u shout still complain. 去吃报纸啦你。


Anyway the food was nice, so ok luh, go there eat lor. High class.





only 7 course. Getting fewer and fewer by the day huh?














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Went to pageone warehouse sale and bought a $5 book. Cool. Shall find some time to read a book. The thickest book I've ever read is Harry Potter. Pathetic huh? Not studious enough.

Then dad's birthday dinner at chui xiang kitchen 醉香小厨.



chui and zui. whhh...?





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On new year's eve, there was an archery outing. Mega fail. Movie again. I think next time I'll just pon archery outings like ghimsiang.

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Should be a very funny and interesting movie. But it's too fast-paced for me, especially when I was so lethargic from chalet..


Looks like I've got to download this movie and re-watch.














01 xmas countdown. Went to lele pot for steamboat. Why are fried mantous in the menu for steamboat? But nice haha. So was the cheese fries1 And the prawn! Oh god. Prawns. I love prawns. And I've eaten lots of prawns this week :D No photos here, so to help me reminisce, people going were huimin qingping jasmine louis bryan choonboon ghimsiang kaisheng jianyu kokli me, and a next-2-doors swusan.

After that we went outside mac to "countdown". Horrible, no place to fit us. I was really tired from chalet also, so we just talked and talked and talked.

Then we started setting our new year resolutions..

2011 resolutions:

1. 15 pull-ups by 2011 [DONE]
2. sbj 260 by 2011 [272 PLEASE]
3. 100% punctuality [sadly, no. but now i've got a watch. a man with a watch will NEVER be late again]
4. new shoes! [OBTAINED]
5. new bag! [BOUGHT]
6. less thinking, more actions [I definitely did more action this year]
7. keep in contact with friends [archery, 01, vball, army but not 05. stupid guard duties -.-]
8. run 2.4km in less than 10mins [ 9:38 GOLD :D]
9. try haagen dazs :D [YES! But I forgot when, need to reread my blog again]
10. learn how to play i'm yours using a guitar! and perform [I learned how to play the chords, but didn't perform!]

Okay, 7/10. Quite decent. I'm so happy that I've set so many goals and achieved so many in 2011, especially the gold in ippt.

Despite having achieved these, 2011 was not a smooth-sailing year for me. you naive kid. 2012 will be better!


MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION:
1. maintain fitness by doing at least 2 x 120 pushups a week, and run at least once a week!
2. find a job soon
3. get a decent grade in uni (i think it's 4.0?)
4. be more spontaneous and take more initiatives
5. try keeping long hair (i don't know why people will link to the guns and roses style zzz)
6. start reading books
7. get class 3 license

Seems boring, but who knows? ^^

I was glad when jasmine said girls do take some initiatives. Looks like my theory of mutualism was correct.

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Played enough after I ORD. I'm ready for the next phase of my life. Every now and then, I'll think of my army days, my nokia 1202, my sai gang periods, my lame style with topless guys, and smile...

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散在地上撕落的岁月
又一天又一年没感觉
伤痕在心田 滚烫的蔓延

-林俊杰 無盡的思念-




like a small kid to whom has been promised a theme park outing, I couldn't sleep
weijian