hey, can you keep up? ahhaha. you sure?!

I better move my ass and record a bit, if not I really will have patches of lost memories..

What did I do? My memory is really getting poorer and poorer. I think it's because I cannot focus. I cannot focus because I am tired. I am tired because I don't have energy. I am deprived of energy because of the extreme boredom from work. This monotonous work is constricting me like a serpent. Okay I should stop complaining :/



at least some visible "achievement"? cleared table!


I really wonder what I'll be doing for the next few weeks. Stoning? More toilet breaks :)







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Went for NTU open house on sat with jerm junhe junyang. As usual, I followed the scholar and gained knowledge. So many things that I don't know! How did the rest know!? Is this an abnormal privation of the passion to study? And of course, we were bombarded with girls from everywhere. The 3 of them were so eager hahaha. later 花田里犯了错 ah.


And then regret started to haunt me again. Didn't know a level was so important. Kinda stupid to have slight interest in math phy chem, only to study something non-related to it in the future. In the process of sharpening those 3, I slackened my attention on my vulnerabilities. One cert can decide a matter of ten thousand +. I also want to be a scholar leh, save on tuition fees to spend more, but can only disappoint myself. What was wrong with me in fixating my life path onto engineering then, and only mechanical engineering!? That was a route of no return. Now I can only strive to be a resolved whale and aim to eat as many plankton as possible in the next few years. Haiz.


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Another singing session for army dudes. Err didn't really have the feel, but just sing haha. Sam sang! Good job opening up haha. It was more for the catching up with watay and kevin. Everyone is working for money now..
















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I think people are not going crazy over 陳妍希, but over the ideal girls they failed to woo during school days.. Just nice her looks made people reminisce the pretty 女神 in their memories..

Alright that was random.

Went to see harry potter fighting against the shrieking black woman. Expelliarmus! Alright I admit, it was quite scary, many thanks to the sound effect and dark background -.-" But all that was what I thought would be "better" for horror movies. If the plot is good enough, whoa, I don't know how scared I'd be? Even now I can't look directly at the screen haha. But I can see it with peripheral vision! Asian ghosts scarier.. but okay, ready for the challenge :) poketection? okay :3

Chia Hong's 21st birthday party! Saw how busy chia hong was, going around and entertaining 4 groups of friends haha. Yesh vegetarian food.. Meatless but still not too bad hah. Took the opportunity to catch up with archery mates too.

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Hopefully the last driving lesson? Argh. Hope can pass! Hope for good weather, no pedestrian, no cars, slack tester, happy atmosphere, no stray animals, smarter and more alert me, lalala..

You won't know what you don't know until you make the mistakes and learn from them, because experience is so valuable.

All in all, a very busy weekend. Hope to clear driving then I'll feel more relax!

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好心一早放开我
从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过

-王力宏 卢巧音 好心分手 -

like a fujitsu laptop, my mind crashed
weijian

guilty of 傻笑

only 700 songs in my iphone, and some of them I just hit "forward" every time I hear the start of those songs. One of them has to be "just a dream". Just too noisy for my liking. 700 songs can last 1.9 days. I've worked for 1month now, ~ 6hours each day. Guess how well I know the lyrics of the songs in my playlist now? Need to dig some nice old songs and put into my playlist but... why are so many files removed from the net?! :(


I learn nothing when I do filing. But if I take the initiative to ask to learn more about stuff like quotation requests, my filing will never be completed. It just irritates me to know that I have a pile of seemingly endless work which is assumed to be completed by the end of my 3months. So, I look like a workaholic doing filing everyday when I'm supposed to be free, and learning nothing. Argh. What a dilemma. Learn more, push off boring work and take in more work, or learn nothing but make progress in boring chore?

This is probably the slackest moment in my life, with frequent thumps delivered every now and then, and a hope to harbor. I don't have an envision of myself in a few months' time because the path I'm on now looks so foggy. But I know the value of self-enrichment and will definitely make it a point to make as little regrets as possible. No one is ever absolutely ready because there is only so much you can foresee and prepare. You just have to have the balls and make a leap.

There was this game in movies where 1 guy and 1 girl dated each other and the one who falls for the other first, loses. Rubbish. What a lose-lose game. You lose a good girl whom you can communicate freely with, or you lose the game. Might as well play another game with me: Toss a coin and give me 5bucks if it's heads; 10 if it's tails; 20 if it's neither.

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So we had birthday celebration for kaisheng! Pretty simple dinner at The Empire State. Once again I felt super bloated. Noob stomach of mine. My self-conferred title of the king of buffet has lost its owner. Oh well, who ask me to be a young fit man now? No seriously, not that I want but my stomach really shrank!

One by one everyone is turning 21 this year. The change is gradual but I'm sure there is a difference. Time to step into the market, boys and girls! Our prime is here!! Erm, that is if you haven't..

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Just wondering why I'm so easily affected by influences. One can make me so happy, the other can make me feel dejected. And I appreciate your support :)) Rather than punishing myself for something wasted, I might as well learn and try to understand others more.

At least I tried?

bleh blah bloh lalala

...lalala

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A very relaxing pace for me, not really sure how it is for you. Glad that there is a sense of fulfillment! Feels healthily tired, just nice for a good night's sleep. Even better with a bedtime "story" hahaha

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Training for marathon 7788 already. 10km + 31storeys this sunday. Yes I get a lot of "lol?" from others. What a small marathon blahblah. But hey I didn't have a chance to run even 10km in army leh! Once guard duty, the other time whole battalion helped out in organising. I wanted to run de lor!



A short meet-up with army guys to collect race pack. Forcefully putting on a smile -.-"



Everyone is on his own track now..








I still remember sleeping soundly on the bench in the vehicle after 1hr+ of uneasy toss and turns, when suddenly..

"Eh wake up wake up. We are moving off."
"Wh..what.."
How reluctant we were. Finally enjoying the peace enjoyed from the battle won against mosquitoes yet it's so short-lived!?

*everything on, and there we went.. to part 2 of an unrealistic war.

... :)


心跳却说服我 没有错
让我心动的人 是谁呀
愿那在梦中的你会懂

-林俊杰 让我心动的人 -


like singing a high note, you either pull it off nicely or just get booed
weijian

be a man

In my JC days, in an attempt to be stupid, I added on to ghimsiang's catch-phrase then.

Be a man, do the right thing.
-Be a man, be wei jian.-

*shakes head
chauvinism vs abasement, it's better for a man to be slightly inclined towards the former than the latter. He has to be the driving force.

He has to be... the man for her.

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These days at work.. I've been doing a lot of filing. Relieved to note that there is progress. But then I realised that there is a lot of update needed for the current files sitting on the shelves. This means more work for me, but all unapparent to the naked eye! Argh.

I must say my work is quite slack hehe. The best thing I've learnt is how to use excel, which erm can be learnt on my own also? -.-" The learning curve in this job as a temp staff is reaching a stagnant gradient = 0 growth...

It's both shocking and surprising, but I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. 2 pairs of eyes? O.O but I'm constantly amused and elated, thanks to a kind of silliness ^^

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So we finally played badminton and went swusan's house to bainian! Hmm gambling makes people entertained, whether it's a lose or win. Of course I'm more subscribed to the idea of win small lose small haha.







symbolic lao yusheng!














And then swusan's birthday party!!

Blowing balloons is a tough job. It requires skills but I'm so bad at blowing. If I were to act in "the three little pigs", I'd fail. It would be something like that: The cute wolf (><) huffed and puffed, and huffed and puffed, but the feather house didn't even move an inch. Overwhelmed by an anxiety that was uncalled-for, the three little pigs went out of their houses and killed the wolf for dinner.

For some reason, my stomach shrank a lot since my ORD. I can't eat much now!

Then it was ghimsiang's song session. Very catchy song composed by the 240 singer of the group. His girlfriend will be so touched.



















bp female models










want to fight? come la!

Just joking, I think we're all too civilised and gentlemanly to be engaged in fights...

Come play scissors paper stone with us if you dare la! or play seven-up with us! hmph!






Glad that the little girl enjoyed herself from showered love all around her.

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一种自然的喜感

just that my socks have to be worn higher.

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I see so many talented people around and I thought, what have I got? Nothing much. And if even those good catchers cannot catch, how do I catch one? Don't talk about people with master balls la, they can catch anyone they want. Ultra balls also cannot catch, what makes you think a pokeball (picked up from a deserted corner some more, not bought from shop one) can catch?

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我把你当作我的空气
如此形影不离

- 王力宏 爱的就是你-

like a peacock, I strutted to the beat
weijian

They say when one is in love, the surrounding trees will seem to blossom, the weather will seem nice, the heart will be light..

or so "they" say. Who are the "they"?!?

So, that was a happy chinese new year everybody. Not really. This year was pretty boring. Instead of the usual hey-yo-army?-studying?-working?-where?-girlfriend?-very tall hor the 3 of you, no one bothered to interact with us! Awkward. We couldn't be bothered to initiate conversations too. So we just ate, received angbaos, watch tv, left.

CNY eve was boring as well. I think it's because of my bloated stomach which caused me to lose appetite. Grew very big leh haha.






The biggest shrooms I've ever seen, next to swusan. Again I don't know whether it's my stomach or the mushroom. So filling!











Spent the last of 初二 watching IP man 2 on tv. Screwed up mediacorp went to censor some of the important fighting scenes, like the rapid and relentless punches on the angmoh at the end. What the hell, next time go broadcast some teletubbies show better la, healthier for kids -.-

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Back in my hometown yiochukang...






Never-ending filing during free times! Oh well, at least I'm slacking. Still can play music and surf the net. Next week is gonna be challenging.


That's my ultimate array of papers split into stacks according to the alphabetical order of employees' names.



Jasmin is another temp staff there. What, don't think too much la, office love -.- Am I old or ..am I old? She's waiting for her O level posting results, just like my brother, while I'm waiting for uni. I went through 2 more phases of life than these teenagers: A levels and army. Hope that I've grown mature since my schooling days? Girls don't like immature guys right.


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The most interesting day of the week, and definitely an indelible memory to me, falls on Saturday. The 3 dramatic idiots and the creation of sjw.

snooze 1.5hrs, smack myself on the butt to run, took a detour when it should only have been one stop, realised that 28th is an invalid day, powerful de-stress activity, laugh non-stop. Got so hot and tired hahaha :D

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First time driving inside the circuit. Wa scary. So many things to look out for. Mount kerb-fail. Inability to stop at white line-fail. Bang car-fail. Look into the mirror and get surprised by the awesome guy looking back at me-fail. Not to forget the demerit points! Hope I can pass it in just one try!

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I think I did something dumb which erased the other half of my post. Now I really forgot what I typed -.-

But I still remember this. I was reading up on friend zone, and realised that girls are the ones who usually "friend zone" guys, not the other way. Don't wanna be confused, so I'm cautious, very cautious. Then again, exercising too much caution impedes the flow of spontaneity. Haiyo I better be spontaneous in accordance to my new year resolution. Chance, are you with me?!

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我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不后悔

-周华健 爱相随 -


like 阿旺，傻人有傻福
weijian

one does not simply fall in love

There must be chemistry for crush to arise, then infatuation, then interaction, then go through some bittersweet experience tgt, then ...

No, it shouldn't be so technical. One simply loves.
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Huimin's birthday celebration at breko cafe at holland v! It was a pretty fun day with games.

After that was more talking session with yumei qp vivien at 302. I just need to sit there and listen to the conversation. So much information and so interesting! like FM201

Yumei's and jianyu's birthday celebration at watami! I was there for the cake and photos only, so I didn't know what happened.. But I got another 01 polaroid photo from yumei hahaha.







choonboon can be really cute eh?










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I lost my wallet.. AGAIN! 3rd time alr. Discovered its absence the next day. REALLY REALLY LUCKY to find it at foodfare! Thanks cleaners! 3rd time losing and 3rd time getting back my wallet. Must do more good deeds to accumulate good karma! offering free help-grandma-cross-road service~


I rmb it was lunch time and I wanted to go out and dabao my standard $3 杂菜饭. Then I realised it was raining. zzzz. So I decided to try cooking again.


That's 2 packets of noodles, 1 fried egg, 3 cheese hotdogs.












I learned my lesson. Never cook 2 packets of noodles with soup! TOO FILLING! But u can do that if it's dried noodles. As usual, fried egg was the best. Hot dog is just hot dog. Cheese was melted, but I still don't know how to make a cheese hotdog. It tasted like cheese and hot dog instead of cheese hotdog.

I wonder when I will push aside my laziness and cook again..


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Finally, after sending 100+ copies of my resume and answering numerous calls, I got a temp job! Ah. okok pay I guess, but it's quite far. Well, better than having no job!


I hope the working environment is nice, and that I'll perform well enough to stay cos I don't wanna go through the application process again..

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After much delay, the long awaited wisdom teeth extraction.



The scariest part was the 5 injection needles. O_O The needles were so freaking long I tell u! But on the surgical chair, there was no turning back. Might as well face it bravely. poke poke poke. Numbness overtook me from the right lane because you are not allowed to overtake from the left lane. My head was covered with a surgical sheet. Then came the sawing. zzzzuuuuuu went the saw. I had no idea wth that oral surgeon was doing, but he was an indian and he looked funny, so I trusted him. Love professional and funny indians ^^ Soon, he stitched the wound and the surgery was over. Like, 15mins?! Cool. The sad thing is.. the pain comes after the anesthesia wears off..




I was kiasu so I quickly popped a pill of painkiller. Hours later, that same incessant pain came but it was bearable. BUT! 重点来了. 2hrs of sleep and the pain was gone! miraculously! I'm more convinced now that sleep allows one's body to heal naturally.

sherlock holmes has a part 2. So does my wisdom teeth extraction-this friday.

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Can't stand this kiasu tutee of mine... His mum gave me a plate of cookies to eat but I didn't feel like biting, so I asked him, " Do you want to eat? Is it ok if I don't eat? Cos I just extracted my wisdom teeth."

A polite kid would say, "oh sure, just leave it there."
A guailan kid would say, "I don't mind treating u my box of ferrero rochers now, u know?"

This kid just stared at me, with a tinge of tikoness, like I was supposed to start saying something, not him. ~awkward silence~ Then I asked my question again. He afk AGAIN! Then he replied, "I don't know. You have to ask my mum."

_|_ indecisive mama boy. Felt like using my pen and stabbing myself.

That was just one of the very distinctive mamaboy incident. Almost every bit of his actions and speech tells u "hello.i'm a mama boy.my mama told me i have to pee at 3am every night so i do it."

Wait, there's 1 more.
me: "Do you know how I can get to ION orchard from here?"
him: *starestarestare afkafkafkafk
me:"any bus or..?"
him: "yes I know. you can take a taxi."

_|_ I felt like licking him. He wasn't joking leh.


My other tutee was the opposite: a tanned cat high boy who looks promising and cool and most importantly is not a mama boy. Not saying that loving ur mum is wrong, don't get me wrong. This is just ...





u know!











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再真心 也会被阻绝

-林俊傑 學不會-

like stephen chow, I act 一个正经 but am crazily lame
weijian

limpeh wong u already! don't get hurt!

Just wondering how long the karma boomerang takes to come back. It doesn't really do me much good in seeing bad guys getting punished, except the derivation of thrill in my belief of fairness.

Anyway, at this period of time, there is the aarontan's fail video and SMRT's fail trains. Together, it's this!







LOL! Gotta give credit to netizens. They are really creative. SMRT's smashed window + ryanxz gobangwall = ryan banging out of window in train. HAHAHA













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Just when I was losing hope, a trip to Mustafa gave me instant levitation, with a halo as free gift.



O.O



ssa011j2!




66% of my expected price! How cool is that! But no warranty! But warranty is only for mechanism, and given seiko's trusted made-in-japan quality watches, mechanisms don't spoil so easily, so warranty is useless!

This watch has everything that I want! Automatic, sapphire scratch-free glass, good-looking, leather strap, within budget, roman numerals, date display, black, japan movement (actually as long as it's not china). Just 1 more day display and this will be perfect! But it's not really important anyway!

happpppyyyy :D:D:D time to scrimp and save. 说到省省省省，哥哥最棒！

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So, driving seems easier and easier alr! But I still feel nervous every time I'm driving and a bit reluctant to go for each lesson :( half-clutch move is an ass.

First time try on listening to music while jogging! WHOA! Jogging becomes less boring now woot! As of now my standard is 4x1.6km bp route. Gotta increase to 8x1.6km before my run!

That hairdresser told me I've got at least 3months before cutting that hairstyle that I want, and I still don't know if that will fit the shape of my head.. Then I thought of reservice->short hair. Wa.. Wait 3months only for it to be shaved again during reservice, then I need to wait again! zzzz nvm, it's worth a try. You can't expect an old 40year old uncle to go out with a stylish hair right?

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TUITION! FOUND 2! LOL! 2 x O level students. I love O level math cos it's sooooo easy and I don't need to prepare anything at all. $_$ 请多多指教，照顾一下我的钱包！

Hopefully under my guidance, they can get A's for their exams.

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Nearing the end of 2011.. I'm looking forward to clar's xmas party, boon's male fiesta, mind-boggling(I typed mind-boggling and then eh? my mind can blog?) megazip, the supposedly-long-awaited 01 chalet, wedding dinner at st.regis 7star hotel, seafood buffet. Oh my god. All these are happening from tmr onwards!? Even my mother also starts to nag me 哇你不要整天出去hor！

That also means all my $$ are gone now..

Then the stupid recruitment agencies cannot match jobs properly one. *TEMP ADMIN JOB $7-9 WEST O/A/ORD PERSONNEL WELCOME TO APPLY! LOTS OF VACANCIES* the advertisements are somewhat like that at jobscentral, but after I sent my resume with my expected salary "$7.50/hr", people still call me "Hi, may I speak to weijian? May I ask if you are still looking for a job? Okay I got an admin job for you and it's near your house. (ohhhh nice nice nice) It's $6.50 per hour."

O_O?! $7-9 becomes $6.50. What shit is this man. Give false info!? Seriously?! Not 1 or 2leh, almost everyone who called told me that.

That's why I still haven't found a job with office hours and at least $7/hr that is near my house. Got some already submitted luh but no news of me getting shortlisted for interview.

Most of the jobs also have this: *accounts assistant required! min 1 or 2 years of exp!* -.-" How am I supposed to gain experience before I start working? They need experienced workers but people can only gain experience when they work. How? Going round and round in circles and finally the dog caught its own tail?

Just give me a job already..

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你说活在明天活在期待
不如活得今天很自在


joyous season calls for light-hearted songs

-孙燕姿 第一天-

like dora, I share your throughts
weijian

everyday is saturday

Lost track of time.. everyday seems like saturday to me. Days after ORD are shiok.

Went for 2 more interviews with recruitment agencies (lame shit). They are really useless ppl. I saw one guy from NTU Business doing recruitment at recruit express at taka last or last last week. Siao, he got 4th class honours or what? Why need to do this kind of insecure job with shit pay? Anyway all the interviews are about filling forms, pairing u up with the jobs that they have on hand, and if u are not an immediate worker, they smile, shake ur hand, and ktnxbai.

1 of them, recruitexpress from JTC building, told me, "Wa your expected salary so high ah, even ppl with experience settle for $6 per hour only leh". But my friends got at least a 7! >:| I'm not china worker ok.

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Slacking at home could be really energising. Firstly I sleep at around 11 everyday, quite early. I wake up at around 9-10 everyday, don't know why I need to sleep for so long. Then it's refresh fb, play iphone game, lunch, refresh fb, afternoon nap, refresh fb, dinner, refresh fb, sleep again. Standard slacking. Sleep sleep sleep sleep. I nvr get tired of sleeping eh?

But the weird thing is I was quite tired this whole week. I don't feel like playing dota when I have nth to do. I'd rather sleep.

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Then on wed, badminton, table tennis, decoder's cafe!

Badminton was rather fail, bcos I warned of the stupid sports hall that allows glaring sunlight to enter and blind players' vision, yet we went ahead to play. Why are there no sports hall in central area?! Right, CBD, no need no sports.

Then table tennis.. 我要玩1v1, 不要2v2啦. Listen alr also dulan. Play solo sports to show off ur individual skills. Hello we are not in a competition here. Play 2v2 for fun only, and can allow more ppl to play, wan to show off then go nude in the public toilet and flash flash. What can I do? Just go along lor.

At decoder's cafe, the fun started to unfold. From 7 to 4 men. Seriously don't give face 1. Travel so far to Clementi for an outing, stay a while longer for the outing ma, aiya I also don't know what to say. But anyway it was super hilarious in the cafe. The games were not funny. We were! Acting like neighbourhood kids looool.

Another singing session with army frens. Funny also. I don't know why but I like to be a lil immature when I'm with the army clique. I miss dancing with jingx jerm and myron alr.. 01guys are too rigid.





Yes, the whole city is full of golden pigs. LOL! We need stuff like this to brighten up our days.

































post ord: these kids are too free.


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There was one night when I went to clar's hse for mahjong. Played a lil of SF IV, then started the mahjong. yongchee started distributing the chips, ok, for better reflection of our standards? So the game began, with me only knowing how to 碰碰胡 and 平和, and not exactly know how to count 台. As usual, I joked around, lala, play this and that, on the move learning. An example is when I'm 莊, I told everyone to prepare to play 5 consecutive rounds, meaning I will win 5 rounds in a row. That came true, but all small wins by me! 1 of the rounds was an intentional draw lol. Then at the end of the game, we counted the chips, ah, blah blah, u won xxx, i lost xx, hahahahahaha. Then came the wallet.

O.O

I didn't know we were playing money! Luckily I lost $0 and won $0 in the end. I was shocked. Had I known, I would have played more seriously, or not played at all lol. I'm not a fan of gambling without special occasions..

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Driving has become much more enjoyable and simpler now... It's amazing. It's like learning dota for the first time, having the need to multi-task. But once u get the hang of it, multi-tasking is quite exhilarating.

there was one turn that was so steep and I was at 5th gear, so, I drifted instead of slowing down. Simple. Just tap brake slightly, clutch in fast, change gear, hard accelerate, steer. Voila, your car can go deliver tofus in Japan now!

Just joking, drift 个屁。Get fined, license get revoked, go jail ah.

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Yes, and thr's sth else. Watch! I've been spending a lot of time reading forums, checking out prices, functions etc of watches. Thanks again China, for screwing up everything in the world. Because of your cheap labour, everything is assembled in your country. The thing is prcs are unethical, unprofessional, dishonest and despicable. They will do anything to save money, such as using melamine as an ingredient. Because of this, I saved myself from buying Kenneth Cole watches.

What's left is a ssa011j2, and a spr005 from seiko. Still undecided whether I should spend the money on a watch, given the obliteration of the timekeeping function of watches now. It really is just an accessory.

So ghimsiang was standing on his point of view and giving me pointers. Some of his arguments are that one doesn't really use a watch: one only wears it; there are other items that I can buy to look good, like a pair of shoes, blazers, shirts, etc; and one might as well buy an expensive watch, or never buy a watch at all because mid-range watches are half-fucked. He suggested expensive fountain pens instead of watches as an accessory bcos at least pens can be used and expensive ones can suit one's writing style with added comfort.

What I'm disappointed in myself is how weak I am. I cannot fight for my point of view on the spot. My points only start coming in later.

Anyway all that is rubbish to me, and I believe some of men's important items are watches and shoes. $_$ let me decide for 1 or 2 more weeks. Maybe this desire will be extinguished.

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One of the disadvantages of ORD is the huge drain on my wallet. So no more free food for me -> $ for meals. No more trainings to preoccupy my time -> $ for entertainment. No more tuition + allowance -> draw $ from reserves.

It's quite scary if I don't exercise some control on my expenditure..




Along with my army days, nokia 1202-2 has gone to the past. I will never forget my msges with u, my courage in u, and my lonely moments with u. U have served me well by never failing to function like a basic phone even though I dropped u hard a couple of times. Next time I see u will be the time when I tell stories about my army days..





I bet there will be a surge of emotions when I see nokia 1202-2 in the future. For now, HAIL IPHONE!



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Banana skins are meant to split. They will cross if there is will, apparently not now. Give me 9months. Metapod will evolve.



风依旧在吹
秋天的雨跟随
心中的热却不退

-林俊杰 被风吹过的夏天-

this song is very secondary school.. I just realised I don't have this song in my itouch/iphone, but I can remember all the lyrics. amazing ljj


like a sparrow looking at an airplane, I thought I was good but.. what went wrong
weijian