not a teen, not an adult. neither here nor there.

Excuse me.
But I might drink a little more than I should, tonight.

Yes, 20, finally. So this is how long 20 years feel like, with more than 12 years forgotten memories.

Thanks for the sincere handshakes, cards, presents and birthday wishes!


Met up with jianyu kaisheng kokli at lot 1 on Friday. I'm very grateful for them making an effort to celebrate with me on my birthday :)




Lucky enough to get the cozy seat at newyorknewyork! Seems a lot like that time when we celebrated jianyu's birthday.. last year?














humongous burger. I can never finish them myself. Or can I? Haha, not worth to try the challenge also luh. Yummy burger and pizzaaaa.


supposed to give fierce and hungry looks, but apparently I'm the only one who got the 杀气 >:O





saw vivien and yf. I shall say that was awkward.
























then another chocolate cake at home. how sweet















Do wishes ever come true? Am I not sincere enough? Or has my desire grown?













Then on Saturday, 01 outing!
with kokli jianyu huimin and me, followed by swusan qingping bryan kaisheng.
poor huimin. But from another point of view, how blissful eh?


ice-skating in the pasar malam rink. I missed the time when I ice-skated during CNY. So few ppl then! Skating with shorts some how made me feel insecure.






























I didn't have any affinity with manhattan fish market. Why? Was supposed to enjoy the 1-for-1 deal on wed nights out, but we chose carl's jr and watched rise of the planet of the apes instead. Could have the chance to eat it on sat for lunch but we chose mac. And so on..


flavoured hoegaarden had a lil weird taste. I'd rather spend less, drink more on... erdinger!
Got so called free MOF membership. Legend has it that the holder of the holy card will have higher chance to get girls.. ..


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insomnia on 25th, just before my birthday T.T tried to sleep at 9, rolled around for 2hrs plus instead, and reveille at 4.30 zzz.

supposed to have 12km route march at 6.45am on my birthday. T.T
but the keyword is "supposed".
:D

Must be my luck! It rained so heavily that the route march was postponed! And possibly cancelled LOL!

Then during nights out, went to carl's junior with noel jingxuan kevin kokli. We thrashed out lots of things haha. I think we were bitching.






"NO!!!! "

That was particularly funny to me because in camp, I like to attempt to disobey orders with a guailan "no", which was the first word that caesar learnt how to speak. Looks like my grandiose refusal has gone popular.








such a good drama.. and the cast is so good-looking! Yea, plastic surgery but they were above average to begin with!


compare this with singaporean drama and u will flinch like u got "hyperbit" by a raticate.




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First time singing with vballers on sunday. I must say it was a weird experience LOL! I think vball group is more suited for physical activities or games.


Right after duty, tuition, badminton with archers, then tuition again T.T Hectic life. And I must say, the people with whom you do activities with play a large role in determining the derivation of satisfaction from the activities. Doesn't mean you enjoy XX with group A means you will also enjoy it with group B.

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想吹风 想自由
想要一起手牵手
去看海 绕世界流浪


like a birthday boy, I wished
weijian

the hangover

yes the whole day today I just feel like sleeping -.-

clubbingz atz phuturez
I felt very out of place. I was wearing a t-shirt and looked very under-dressed. Everyone else who was not in our group was smoking. Some people were very high, for some reason, while I was there, looking around, trying to get used to the surroundings and busying with leveling up my situational awareness.




mostly 乖仔s in platoon 9













ha wat's the orange light doing there, I dunno.


the so-called F4. Very different from the taiwan F4 but doesn't matter. We are the icon of platoon 9.








I have been wondering what is my limit for alcohol. So that day, I just spammed the drinks. Around 8 cups with mixers, and a few random pure shots from the bottle. Siao. Once the effect kicked in, I was a goner. I was conscious but very very very dizzy. I even vomited twice in the toilet. That's how horrible it was. So I'm guessing, my limit should be around 4-5cups. And seriously, I prefer sweet drinks. Come thy sugar. Envelop me and fill me with.. wait, no. I need da gym n run.

Dancing was however fun! It is a very loose activity that allows you to de-stress by singing out loudly and jumping/shaking around. We got high easily and just went into the pool of people and zaaaaaaar. Actually I don't even know if that's called dancing. It was sooooo packed, 10 times worse than inside a mrt during peak hours. Everyone just went in and bua. But I do remember the champagne shower song being played and everyone was shouting along with hand gestures. Fun.

The very next day I suffered from hangover symptoms like fatigue and dizziness. But it was really fun before I couldn't take it lol. I'm such a poor drinker. $62.80 I'd rather buy a new shirt.

National Day Dinner @ Lot 1

Before clubbing was national day dinner. 9 course dinner that was quite yummy but not filling at all. It's like a 黄金年华 luh. 150 tables filled up by old uncles and aunties. There was a gift for august babies! Not bad huh? So I queued up excitedly and guess what the gift was.

leftover national day tote bag with national day goodies

wtf? And that's not all. The first few lucky draw "winners" got 5 x national day tote bag. wtf?? What a lousy gift. We were all hoping not to get called up stage to claim the tote bags.

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4km route march with soft armour plates. At first I thought we were really lucky to not be marching with hard armour plates because they weigh a ton!! But apparently that is the case for all the companies. Then I saw Archer company marching without weapon. WTF!! How suay are we to have route march and be on standby-operation?!

Fortunately, we were the first company to book out on friday at 2pm + ^^. We got all eyes staring at us from all the other companies ah hahaha. Finally, cougar had its rest!

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The idea initiated by me was dismissed and rejected without any thought into it. The same idea proposed by another guy was understood and accepted. Why? Just because I like to joke around, does that mean every time I open my mouth, I'm joking? Ever tried listening to the content of my speech before deciding if it's crap or not? Is there a need to be so judgemental? Do you need lessons on reading facial expressions to tell if someone is serious or joking? It's a completely unfair dismissal of my ideas leh, not even a moment of consideration. Not funny hor. Do you like it when everything you say gets repelled for illogical reasons? Once in pw, and now this, and of cos some other times that I forgot.

Just what is my problem? I provide entertainment, but it backfired. I be serious, people ask me not to emo.

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sex 是什r?! *pronounced as sharl

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I feel sorry for pulling ghimsiang down. But that retarded ecstatic expression really sums up my awesome feeling during dinner on wednesday nights out. Quite expensive though :(

Next time I'm gonna make cheese fries by myself.

And just how many toot photos do I have of myself? Almost all of my photos are actually >:/


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tell them what I hoped would be uhm.. possible


like a boy looking at a domino's classic chicken pizza with extra cheese, "I'm wally hungwee nao"
weijian

straw hat boy

to be a 'good catch' , 好抓

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This week was rather long, cos I got guard duty on Thurs and Sat. But that's ok bcos the 2 duties were sooooo slack :)


There was games day on Friday. But all lose :/.. For the 1.5km run competition, everyone in the company had to participate. While I put my best foot forward for every single stride, some people in my company just strolled at the back, and lagged a lot. Was it their indifferent attitude, or was it the universal fact that some people are just not that fast? I'm more inclined to believe in the first perception of them. Why. First of all, all of us are combat fit. How far apart can we be in just a 1.5km combat-fit-guys run? Some people just don't have the drive and passion to fight for their pride. Maybe that run seemed like an obligatory chore to them. But at least for me, I had a sense of belonging to Cougar. I ran the best I could, for Cougar.


And the 老鼠屎 were apparent in every company. It is inevitable. The world would definitely be a better place without their impediment. If I were a boss, I'd eradicate them all.


Best game was the water bomb game, just like that NJ orientation game. Only 15 participants, so I had to stand at the grand stand and watch the live war. What's so nice about it? GANG BANG! Influence of emcee on the participants by coercing them to attack one particular group! It was especially interesting bcos there were so many gangsters in my camp, and many of them were playing. The gang clashes were crazy. People rolled and flew LOL. Lucky I didn't join sia. Gangsters lol.

Unsurprisingly, tension rose and some got very agitated, including high ranking officers. I'm guessing vulgarities were flying everywhere on the field, together with water bombs. Am I evil to have enjoyed watching these gangsters flaunting their capabilities in physical destruction?

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Army is ok actually. There were lots of unhappy experiences, and I really got exposed to the ugly side of selfishness, but hey, I offset some of my parents' tax? I got free food? I get to slack? 精忠报国!

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For now,



Life in one expression.










我担心 会不会跟不上 你的世界


like 此地无银三百两, it's conspicuous
weijian

If I have 4 more months to live, you can just kill me now.

Should I say it's fast or slow? It's slow while I'm in it, but fast on hindsight. The speed is still the same: 24hrs a day. Life starts from 2Dec :D

u might think "aww, c'mon army life is life too! :))"
4km 8km 12km route marches in august, and the 12km route march falls on my birthday -.-


Last monday night was shiok. [seriously the experience was only 1 week ago but it felt like v v v v long ago. Hastened aging process??] My father sent me to camp with his motorbike. The wind blasting at my body was so cooling! Yea, that was not really a big deal right? 150km/hr LOL. Don't compare with aeroplanes cos u can't feel the wind when u're inside! I felt like a g6.


Just when project ppn is starting to take off, badminton interfered. ARGHHH. While I was playing with weights, some others were playing badminton in the hall! Shittttt. I missed badminton so much that I gymed for a while and joined them in 1 or 2 games.


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"It takes both brawns and brains to be a man." quoted from edwin ng, spotted in the newspaper. High flyer lol.
Hmm, okay, I'll go shop for these 2 items next time!

"Losing interest in most activities could be a sign of depression" from advertisements in mrt.
If that's true, then a lot of my friends in army are depressed. A bunch of sad sloths. Superficial interactions.
Aye, I really don't understand. Why are friends outside only considered for friends? They were friends last time only because they walked similar paths together before what. Allocating a slot for army friends isn't a lot to ask right.
We can be discussing about outings from monday to thursday, but from friday to sunday, everything will vanish.
It's not their fault, and not like I care, anymore. That's why everyone gives the Idon'tgiveafuck attitude. You'll know when you try giving one. By giving the Idon'tgiveafuck attitude, you don't need to worry about losing anything.


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What was originally a durian outing became a normal dinner. Ok, not bad, I'm done savouring durians for this season anyway ^^. huimin jasmine kokli ghimsiang choonboon jianyu kaisheng me






LOL! retarded, really.


















ww what? Really cos this kind of boss? How is it horrible? HAHA. Good job that fiance! Nice funny movie about 3 retards. The reason why that murder consultant is called motherfucker is another LOL! I love retarded movies.










Then went to gym with clarence n kokli on sunday. About the same as the gym in camp, just that there were girls and we paid to get in.


Monday
Another singing session with a small group of army frens. Kinda sian alr LOL! Cos I'm always singing in camp hehe. But singing outside allows me to try high pitch songs.

Thereafter is a supposedly 01 outing that didn't seem like an 01 outing. XLB buffet at crystal jade! yumei swusan jane vivien huimin jasmine qingping bryan zhian kokli ghimsiang jianyu kaisheng kenneth me. Damn wasted, I put lots of pork inside my stomach instead of the cute xlbs! Should have eaten more xlbs hahaha. Oh, and my awesome table got huimin jane jasmine zhian kokli! huimin n I are prawn-ers >:) ate like 10+prawns, and I almost thought the prawn is free-flow 1 LOL! (they came from jianyu's table)
















We eat at the same time, but at 3 different tables. It's really very lame, meeting in the name of "01", eat, go home. :/ But that's not for me ha. Finally tasted haagen dazs ice cream! YEAAAAAAAAAA. To me, that was like the king of ice creams. Yum yum. I like tiramisu and raspberry!

Bryan said being a bf is like having a job, but instead of getting paid, you lose money and get bullied lol. Well affection is priceless.


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On the floor by J.Lo sounds familiar? Like.. like the tune from the electronic lantern during Mid-autumn festival? LOL! Only 01 people have that childhood :) no one in my camp except kokli finds that tune familiar





It's this tune! It's quite nice actually, with a bit of nostalgia too.






Surprisingly, I find this album very nice! Even my mother says his songs are very soothing! But my bros don't like lol. I think not everyone will like his style also haha. 慢灵魂 tune is still resounding in my mind now.





very very bored. very very. At least last week my body was driven by outing(s).

see, the eye tells more than the mouth.

like a boss, I pump up my chest
weijian